Nagging in my mind (nothing personal)

Well its after 10 but I am still a little wired feel sleepy half the time and awake the other. Mybe if i lay down i will be ok. but anyway....

This past week has been sorta hectic with me going through the second week of classes. I know that its really hard not just to go through the motions of this lovely college life. I think most people would hear of Ole Miss and think of the fact that we are in the top 5 party schools but i dont cater to that. I dont go to parties (ok frat or sorority). If i go to a party its usually held at UCSC (the student center) which means that I dont get to tempted. I know that its really weird and all to hear about what isnt fun and what is but i think that the best thing here is the Christian family I have been "adopted" into. (Casey u dont know how much the calls mean to me), I mean i havent had to much of a push toward being a Christian until i came to college. Its not that my home congregation doesnt care its that i dont think they know how to touch kids like me.

I know some of the people still treat me like I was still 5, and its hard just to not just yell at them and say "I AM NOT A LITTLE KID ANYMORE TREAT ME LIKE U WOULD ANOTHER ADULT" but i dont know if that will help.

I have to admit that until college I didnt have a really great relationship with God. Yeh there was camp during the summer but the rejuvination that I got there didnt last til the following July. it kinda stopped at about december. Expecially after my Great Grandmother died.

Well I need to stop ranting. I am not downing my home congregation at all they are trying but its the older "kids" like me that are suffering from their lack of caring when i was growning up. I mean if I miss Rebels I get a call from Casey seeing if I had needed a ride or if they had forgotten me and that tells me how special that relationship will be.

Well On a school note classes are going great.

jack